It was always a struggle to get her to tell me “I love I love drunk me but I don’t trust that bitch tshirt” or to have her call me her “boyfriend”. Several months went by and it was hard for me to let go of her because all thoughts of her drew attention away from my priorities and my energy drained as months went by. I hated how she was able to “move on” so effortlessly with practicing meditation and yoga and that she was so “whole”, she didn’t understand why I “needed” her love. We even taked about marriage at one point